so it's basically midnite on a saturday evening and i'm sitting inside the crib, just chilling, listening to adele's remake of bob dylan's "make you feel my love. i absolutely love that song, but anyway - the reason why i chose to blog on this crispy chicago saturday night/early sunday morning because there's really not much else to do. but i've been quite the busy bee lately; with all of this planning and other things as well. i'm just ready for the weather to get nice and stay nice so i can really fulfill my time here in chicago before i head back to school. but let me get deep and philisophical on y'all just for a minute. . . =]
lately, i've just felt a little lost in translation - being back @ home and seeing friends and family, it's all felt like a dream to me. i feel like i've been going through the motions lately, all the while keeping to myself and just living life from day to day. it's like, i want the real me to jump out and just experience life as those around me do. i think part of my problem is that i'm too busy observing life around me, trying to figure what would be the safest move to make instead of just going for it. not being afraid to fall and get a little scrape here and there - because it usually builds charcter and makes you stronger. i hope that this summer teaches me to open up and be more accpeting of the life around me, because right now, i'm sooo sheltered within myself that i'm just a little bit intimidated to live life on the edge just a little bit. i can't be afraid to live forever, right?
i guess i should speak upon the song which this entry is titled, right? well, like i said earlier, adele remade bob dylan's song "make you feel my love" and she does a beautiful job. but there's much truth behind the song though - and it doesn't necessarily have to deal with romantic relationships, but it can deal with any type of relationship that you have in your life. for me personally, i see the song as a personal metaphor - me finally wanting to live life for me and live it to the fullest. also, just being able to approach certain situations with confidence & solidarity. i guess this feeling is all a part of growing up, huh? but i know that i'll eventually figure out where i'm going, how i'm getting there & who will be on the wild & craziii ride with me. unil then, i'm just going to enjoy every breathe i take and dance like there's no tomorrow.
signing off - over&&out.
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"i can't be afraid to live forever, right?"
ReplyDeleteHmm... okay, Miss Chasity.
Anytime you're feeling afraid of doing something, anything in particular, just think... "what's the worst that can happen"? It's like being in the middle of a dream and asking... "am I dreaming"?
It gives you the insight to do things, that you might've been too afraid to do otherwise. You only get one life, babe... you better damn well live it.