one year older, one year wiser.

"so long, farewell, my life's moving forward. my ship has sailed, & i'm so glad it's over. my heart is well,
after all that i've been through i found myself." - ciara

hi friends,

for those of my readers who have just complete their first week of spring semester, congratulations. i'm uber-excited about what this semester, let alone this year has in store. i've been blessed to see another year this week, and i couldn't be more thankful. as i sit here listening to "i found myself" by ciara, i can't help but think about all the things that i've experienced over the span of my life : hurt, happiness, heartache, joy, ect. but for the most part, i'm excited to move forward and live my life. for the longest, i feel like i've been living life in some what of a shadow, or as i put it earlier this week, using other people's lives as crutches to live mine. well, that ship has sailed and i feel liberated for some reason. twenty-one has brought me to a plateau of finally doing things that make me happy and being content with the person that i am. no one is perfect, and for the longest i've felt that i didn't fit into the mold that society is supposed to have for me, but you know what? f*ck that mold and the horse that it rode in on - i'm doing me finally and it feels pretty damn good.

no longer will i reduce the way i feel about myself to fit some fictitious mold that others around me think i should fit. this is my life and i only get one, i plan on living up. there are many responsibilities and priorities that come with being twenty-one, but i feel that i am very prepared to face them head first. i just feel this burst of energy that i've never felt before, a fire that has never blazed like this before in my heart. while there are some things that i will continue about myself, i'm just going to continue to do me, and that is all that i can do.

i will continue to P.U.S.H. and believe that everything will happen at the right place and time. i'm very hopeful for what life has in store, and i'm so blessed to be able to wake up day after day and experience it. <3

*-csc.