come on and go with me...

after a very long weekend in andalucía (south of spain), i've returned with a new mindset on not only my surroundings, but on the person that i currently am at the moment. and while i would love to go into detail, i'm going to keep it brief because i've gotta study for midterms *grrr*

number one : the moment that you think you've got it under control & know who you are concretely, something always comes along to tell you otherwise.
as simple as this sounds, things can get a little complicated with this one. while i am secure in who i am on certain levels, there always tends to be times when certain layers are peeled away because they're just getting old. after a particular situation occurs (where i know that i am in the wrong) i see me taking steps backward instead of forward; mostly reminding me of times when i was in high school. -_-

number two: don't let people get under your skin - no matter how awkward or annoying they may be. 
this is a constantly reoccurring one that i see if i tend to be around people for longer than i would like to be. when this happens, i start to retreat to my comfort shell, get an attitude and have smart comebacks for everything and everyone. i'm not too sure where i get this from (maybe i will find the root of the problem during my psych studying) but i'm definitely working on it. i always have to remind myself that things aren't as bad as they seem and just to take time to relax & release. no big deal.

number three: your mind was specifically designed to create and harbor certain images; images that are both true and false. don't give in to the false and negative ones!
i'll admit - not having access to the blackberry overseas has been very interesting for me, but i'm learning to do without having constant connection with everything in my own little world. stuff like that can make you go crazy! with the lack of communication, the left side of my brain came up with crazy images that the right side of my brain tried to process, but ultimately failed because i came to my senses. i had to remind myself that i am currently on a journey that is a once-in-a-lifetime experience and i should be taking full advantage of it and not worrying about things that are out of my control. sh*t will happen, period point blank! but it is up to me to live my life right not to the fullest and not try to fix thangs that ain't broken. ;-)

maybe any of you can relate to this? i know it may sound incredibly weird, but that's how i roll sometimes. i just gotta get it out some way, some how.


it's always wise to put yourself in check, because it may be worse if someone else has to #imjustsayin. 

ok, enough with the self-evaluation for now. back to the world of academia. deuces!

-*csc.