Roses are red, & those shoes are killin' too

Amber Rose just did a spread for Emoda.com and did the darn thing. As we all know, Ms. Rose is Kanye's piece, and ever since that ad she did for his sneaks, her name & face has been seen here there and everywhere. But you can't hate on the chick, she does her thing. It'll be interesting to see how much her career blow-upchuates now that she's back with the Louis Vuitton Don. Gone head, girl *two snaps*

emergency room :: mario f. rihanna

if y'all havent' heard this tune by now, y'all have got to hit up YouTube or Imeem and take a listen. I originally heard this song about three weeks after the Chris Brown/Rihanna fiasco *side eye* and thought, "Dayum, she just went at dude's head doe?! Like, pullin' out his IV?! That's pretty clever girlie.." lol - and of course, my boy Mario blessed the track with his sultry voice *and fine @$$ by THEE way, lol* Take a gander @ the track & let me know what you think of it

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N9HJz4izAYM

seeing stars?

she asked for three, feel asleep in the chair & came out the shop with 56.
needless to say, i would've been TIGHT.

i'm just tryna get my spot like a polka dot

it always rains in northern chicago...that's what "da town's" new slogan should be. i wish the sun would come out and play for longer than one day. but anyway...on to other things. so my time here in the 'go is coming closer to a close. i can't believe a month went by that fast, but i'm heading back to school for the rest of the summer and i actually couldn't be more excited. i hope to save enough money to pay off some of my expenses & to even buy a few things for myself ;)
speaking of "things", i went to saks 5th ave on michigan ave sunday and saw some aweeesome some stuff. like, i looked like a kid in a candy store. christian louboutin, louis vouttion, gucci, you name it - it was all there and it looked sooo pretty. i'm a sucker for shoes & handbags, so that's all that caught my eye. with all that i want to do in my career, i just hope hope i'll be able to afford all of that cool stuff. while material things aren't everything, sometimes you've gotta treat yourself every now and then. ;)

i guess the real topic of discussion for this entry is how i've felt like an outcast since being back at home. like i can totally be "anti" when i want to and be totally stand off-ish when i want, but when you have to force it on yourself, it's not as fun. not to say that i'm making myself feel out of place, it just feels weird being back home after being gone for sooo long. i guess it's just another stepping stone to my growth & maturity, huh? but i will say this - being back at home has allowed me to settle somethings and realize others about people that i'm cool with. some of the friends that i have *and love immensely* are selfish brats. wham, i said it! lol, they only care about themselves and throw gosh darn pity parties for themselves 24/7 *365 (or 366). like wth, get OVER yourself, please!?! it's 2oo9, we're in a recession - times are already hard, and you're gonna make it even worse by making people feel sorry for you? i know that sonds heartless, but it's true....you are the controller of your own destiny and well being. sometimes, people have to understand that we must alternate the way we live in order to get the results that we want. i'm learning that first hand and as hard as it's going to be, the results are really going to show by the end of this year and i know i'm going to be extremely proud of myself. i think it's just gonna take me getting away from home to really implement my plan of action. i'm excited =]

in essence, i just want to encourage people and myself to dream and never stop dreaming. dreams really do come true as cornballish as that sounds. proactivity will be the theme for the rest of this year, along with my on-going theme of "let go&&let god"

i think the two together might just be inseperable.
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closer to my dreams <3

it's been a minute since my last entry, so i thought i would just check-in.
so, like many people predicted *sigh* the los angeles lakers are the 2oo9 NBA champions. it's not really a surprise - i just don't understand why everyone was so ecstatic about this victory. i mean, it is what it is. *lol* moving on to other news, i have finally figured out what type of career i want to have, it's just a matter of me getting to that final destination. I know it's gonna take a few twists, turns & detours, but I am confident that i will get there. being at home has allowed me to take time to really think and clear my head so that when i get back to the cuse next month, i'll be able to start making things happen. i think my dilemma *or maybe its a blessing* is that i have so many different interests and i just want to make sure that i satisfy each of them. i've got a love for fashion, music, and dance. that combination is dope & deadly. but as i was talking to my cousin yesterday, there are somethings that i will have to put on hold in order to fulfill my destinies right now. i just need to make a list of everything that i want/need to do before i graduate. i think spain next summer will be a reality, i'm going to madrid/barcelona - that is a must. i just have to figure out when i will be able to fulfill my internship. but now that i think about, my major allows me to do an internship in syracuse as a practicum, so it will be fulfilled. spain, summer 2010. i can see it now. as for everything else? wowzers, i've got four semesters to fit in fun, growth, maturity & experience. i think i can do it, do you? ;-)


so far, i think i'm heading in the right direction. i've spent majority of my life worrying about what others would think about my actions, but now that i'm starting to come into my own, i'm breaking that mold of really giving a f*ck about what people have to say or think. in retrospect, i've gotta have respect for people's opinions, but i think wheni touch down in the cuse for the 2009-2010 school year, i just may have to ruffle a few feathers with what i'm about to do. the scary thing is, i've got the tools and know how to be the next college phenom, but i've just got to figure out where to start. like i love reviewing things - but i also want to be able publicize and plan events...hmmm if there was a way for me to bring them together...to the laboratory i must go! gotta get all these ideas on paper. one thing that i do know is that dreams come true to those who believe in themselves and what they are capable of. the world better watch out ;-)
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to make you feel my love <3

so it's basically midnite on a saturday evening and i'm sitting inside the crib, just chilling, listening to adele's remake of bob dylan's "make you feel my love. i absolutely love that song, but anyway - the reason why i chose to blog on this crispy chicago saturday night/early sunday morning because there's really not much else to do. but i've been quite the busy bee lately; with all of this planning and other things as well. i'm just ready for the weather to get nice and stay nice so i can really fulfill my time here in chicago before i head back to school. but let me get deep and philisophical on y'all just for a minute. . . =]

lately, i've just felt a little lost in translation - being back @ home and seeing friends and family, it's all felt like a dream to me. i feel like i've been going through the motions lately, all the while keeping to myself and just living life from day to day. it's like, i want the real me to jump out and just experience life as those around me do. i think part of my problem is that i'm too busy observing life around me, trying to figure what would be the safest move to make instead of just going for it. not being afraid to fall and get a little scrape here and there - because it usually builds charcter and makes you stronger. i hope that this summer teaches me to open up and be more accpeting of the life around me, because right now, i'm sooo sheltered within myself that i'm just a little bit intimidated to live life on the edge just a little bit. i can't be afraid to live forever, right?

i guess i should speak upon the song which this entry is titled, right? well, like i said earlier, adele remade bob dylan's song "make you feel my love" and she does a beautiful job. but there's much truth behind the song though - and it doesn't necessarily have to deal with romantic relationships, but it can deal with any type of relationship that you have in your life. for me personally, i see the song as a personal metaphor - me finally wanting to live life for me and live it to the fullest. also, just being able to approach certain situations with confidence & solidarity. i guess this feeling is all a part of growing up, huh? but i know that i'll eventually figure out where i'm going, how i'm getting there & who will be on the wild & craziii ride with me. unil then, i'm just going to enjoy every breathe i take and dance like there's no tomorrow.

signing off - over&&out.

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*shine/everybody nose

my computer decided to mysteriously end my last entry, so i must start again *hehe*

but like i was saying the first time, it is another beautiful day in surbuban chicago & i think that this summer is off to a great start. i'm doing my best to stay positive about achieving my goals and dreams; adequately setting myself up for success. So what has been going in the lovely world of LilMizSunshyne? Bucket loads of fun, of course. Kicked off the summer by going to the Dillo Day concert Saturday with a few friends to see Estelle & N.E.R.D. and it was dopetastic (check out just a few of the photos above). Loved both of the sets they put on. I could've done without all of the pushing and shoving and crowd surfing - but hey, it was a college concert, so you were going to experience that, right? Estelle was madd funny & quite entertaining. She kept it real with the crowd & even when a girl got hurt from the shananigans of some knuckleheads, she stopped her set to see if she was alright. I must say, it was rather distracting for the paramedics to come in front of the stage to assist the girl, but i guess you have to do what you have to do sometimes. When N.E.R.D. came on stage, the crowd went bananas! I was just geeked to see Pharrell *giggles* he's madd cute in person, but the crowd started getting a bit reckless, so me and my girls had to chuck the deuces and moved toward the exit so we could breathe and not get trampled over. But from where we stood, it was pretty dope and they had the lights just a flashing...i was really seeing sounds ;-) My next concert *i'm hoping, but it's like next week, so who knows" is the Musiq/Anthony Hamilton/Chrisette Michele show @ the Arie Crown Theater on June 13th. I love R&B, so i know that this concert is gonna be dope. But if I dont make that, I will be attending the Taste of Chicago where I will see Ne-Yo & Keri Hilson for free! Apparently, Lupe Fiasco is supposed to be performing in Grant Park for free, but I'm still unaware of the day that he'll be there. Regardless, I'm there. (got "Soldier" by N.E.R.D f/ Lil Wayne & Santogold in the headphones right now....goes hard!)


Now on to bigger things, like planning this QUEST workshop for the class of 'o9. so much to do, so little time. but i'm not worried - i've got lots of help and i know that this going to be yet another success.

Anything else...oh! be on the look out for my future endeavors coming to life, starting summer 2009. it's about to get really real, really quick. can't wait for the ride ...


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